Life After Love (Part 1)

It's not easy to describe what's my heart feels at this time.
Sad, confused, upset, troubled, distracted, but from outside I wanted to look tough.
I do not know why we could end up like this.
From the beginning I've given all my love, but ends with his betrayal.
Many things I have to keep it myself, this makes the situation more difficult.
I let him go, but honestly I hated the woman who stole his love from me.
I'd lost his love, not the person.
I'd lost the one to talked to, rather than his physical.
But I can't go on like this, fall too deep into sin that I've did.
God is still punishing me, I am well aware of it, but I must be strong through it.
I've lost, and then the Lord calls me home.
I realize when I came home, things will never be the same again, everythings has change!
Many things are regretted, a lot of time wasted, and many wounds are scratched.
But I just want to go home, because in God's house, I feel safe.
I'll try not to go anymore from you Jesus, because You love me more than anyone.
My life in Your hand, in Your plan. 
Everything will be beautiful in His time.

Sincerely, my brokenhearted.